Ev'ry Rung Goes Higher, Higher
by Gale Acuff
Sunday School today was about Jacob's
ladder and we sang that song where you stand
and use your arms as if you're climbing and
call yourself a soldier of the Cross. I
don't know what that means, exactly, but
it's a good tune. Miss Hooker's our teacher
and she led us, with her red hair and green
eyes, and mouth that was just made for smiling,
she can open it so wide and if I
had sat closer instead of way in back
I would've seen into the bottom of her
belly. Which reminds me of Jonah and
the whale, or should I say Jonah in it.
We were all climbing and climbing and I
could see her shoulders, which look soft, each time
she got higher. I've seen her hands and arms
--and legs, of course, I mean where they end at
her skirt, which my mother says is too short
but Father just laughs and then she gives him
that look that means they may be married but
Shut up or maybe Shut up because they
are. Where was I? I could see her knees, too,
each time one of her legs moved up a rung,
and that was nice, seeing so much of her
but I know why Mother would disapprove
although I can't explain it--a feeling
I got from watching her, not just watching
but climbing along with her, stroke for stroke.
I'm only 10, there's a lot I don't get,
but I know that when you're married you sleep
together and not just sleep but other
stuff in the dark in your room and sometimes
you make sure it's locked, like my parents
do at least on Friday nights and every
so often Saturday nights, too, and then
there's the night before Christmas and New Year's
Eve. And their birthdays. But not Halloween.
You can read in there and watch TV and
listen to the radio and play cards
and laugh and cry and sometimes both at once.
And if there's a keyhole you should block it
so no one can peek in. Not that I do.
I think that Miss Hooker is 25
but to be so old she's in good shape if
I'm any judge--Father is but he's mum
when Mother brings her up and then he tries
not to smile or looks out the window or
clears his throat a couple of times and says
he's out of Winstons and where are Mother's?
When we got finished with Jacob's ladder
Miss Hooker was sweating a little, though
with ladies I should say perspiring, but
that's a rose by any other name, like
Jesus said, or maybe Liberace
or the weather girl on the evening news.
We all sat down--I guess we made it there,
to Heaven I mean--but I felt warmer
and I always figured Heaven for mild,
not too cold and certainly not too hot,
something like the Piggly Wiggly grocery
where we shop each Saturday. And next time
I'm going to save my twenty-five cents'
allowance and buy Miss Hooker something
nice, candy or bubble gum or a ring,
but it can't be too fancy at that price,
and give it to her after Sunday School
next week, the ring I mean, and put it on
her finger myself, if she'll let me and
if it's not too little and her finger's
not too fat. That will mean she's my girlfriend
if she takes it--and me along with it,
of course--but if she turns me down she'll still
be polite about it and I'll tell her,
Well, no one sings Jacob's Ladder like you
and when I saw you sweating--perspiring,
I mean--something happened to me and that's
love so please think twice before you turn me
down else why should I feel this way and it
be wrong? That should shut her up and yet I
want to see her make her mouth so big
and stretch her lips and show her tongue and gums
and her teeth like sugar cubes while she climbs
and climbs and climbs and finally reaches
Heaven and I came along for the ride.
When we get married we'll have our own
room and we'll do a lot of other things
I bet my parents don't, like hug and kiss
and make babies, though I'm not good at that
--maybe she can show me, she's old enough
to know--and see each other naked, which
might be nearly as good as seeing
God, or as close as you can get on earth.
Bio: Gale Acuff has had poetry published in Ascent, Ohio Journal, Descant, Adirondack Review, Worcester Review, Verse Wisconsin, Sequential Art Narrative in Education, Poem, South Carolina Review, Carolina Quarterly, Maryland Poetry Review, Florida Review, Amarillo Bay, South Dakota Review, Santa Barbara Review, and many other journals. She has authored three books of poetry: Buffalo Nickel (BrickHouse, 2004), The Weight of the World (BrickHouse, 2006), and The Story of My Lives (BrickHouse, 2008). She has taught university English in the US, China, and the Palestinian West Bank.
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